Pennies on the Ground

Coming into work, I saw a penny on the ground.  It was tails up, bad luck.  But then the words of one of my godfather’s rung in my ears, “Who am I tell the universe that I don’t need money?” Or abundance.

So I picked it up

That penny sat on my desk at home for a week and then it went into the coin jar.  In a couple of months; maybe a year since I don’t use cash much, I will take all the coins out, roll them and make a trip inside the bank to deposit them.

The penny on the ground isn’t going to fill the jar. Nor is it going to get me out of debt or help me save for my next adventure on its own.  Just like sitting down to write for ten minutes isn’t going to write my next novella.  It will, however, help me get closer to those goals.

Because who I am to turn down the abundance and gifts of the universe?  Like the gift of a quiet Sunday morning to write.



Lessons the Hard Way…

Four in the morning and I can’t sleep.

A plan to pay rent is in the works and tomorrow or today I will begin implementing it.  I have changed all of my passwords,  backed up the laptop files so I can clean it and cancelled all of my scheduled payments. The last step really wasn’t necessary since I am going to be closing the account down, but it made me feel better.  The Netflix and Hulu subscriptions have been put on hold as well.

I, sincerely, appreciate everyone who has expressed their concern, but I want to be clear.  I didn’t do everything I could have done to prevent this.  My own neglect lead me to where I am right now.  I messed up and someone or someones took advantage of it.

Which is the main reason that I am sharing this very personal and embarrassing situation. Maybe it is the teacher in me that is determined to let others know so they can avoid stepping into the same trap.  Wireless connections are not as secure as many think and spyware doesn’t always just report what websites you visit to an on-line marketing company.  It can do other things.

And the reality it is, I may never figure out how they did it. All I can do at this point is fix the damage and take steps to ensure that it doesn’t happen again. Oh and thank the heavens, again and again that I have family and friends willing to help me find solutions and to think clearly for me when I break down.

A hard lesson is being taught to me and a suspect there will be many more restless nights.

There is no doubt in mind though that I will be better off after all of this than I was before it.