Vague Death Post

What do you do when the person you've been in a toxic relationship for 16 years dies and you find out a day later? What do you do when for the last ten years that person has kept you as a secret? You cry.  The tears seeping out rather than pouring.  You tell yourself to …

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The State of Things April

Oh goodness, where am I now? Physically, I am sitting on a broken chair at my writing desk. My knees aren't aching, but my hip hurts. Don't know why, but it is. Getting older when you have lived an interesting life isn't easy. It is hard to get old. It is hard to deal with …

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Only Human

I am only human, although I have gone by nickname of Dragon for years. My flesh is mortal and although I have dry skin, no scales adorn my body. COVID-19 took me out for 3 weeks. In the midst of these unpresideneted (only unpresidenet because we don't really study history) times, I have faltered from …

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I’m Not Positive, I Am Trying to be Pragmatic

I am not positive, I am pragmatic. Or at least that is what I strive to be much of the time. It may seem like my attitude toward problem solving is positive, but the reality is that it is rooted in pragmatism. Pragmatism is more concerned with matters of fact than of what could or should be.

Why We Hate Math

Photo by ThisIsEngineering on Pexels.com Math is logical and our brains are not. Our brains make leaps while math takes a steady and careful path to its destination. It follows rules and its paths are well chartered. Our minds not so much. For the record, I don't hate math. I love it. I became a …

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Character Motivation

What makes you do the things that you do? What makes you reach for that cookie when you are on a diet? Or play that game when you should be sleeping? What really motivates us to act? What motivates someone to murder? Recently, I finished watching the Netflix docuseries "Killer Inside: The Mind of Aaron …

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Night Stalker Too Graphic?

The Netflix docuseries "Night Stalker" has been criticized as being too much for viewers. If it is then we have sanitized the real horror of Richard Ramirez's crimes to the point that we expect no longer to be uncomfortable when dealing them. Richard Ramirez was a monster. He was rapist, a child molester and a …

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Meds are not a Failure

Photo by Markus Spiske temporausch.com on Pexels.com A little over year ago, I went back on medication for anxiety and depression. It wasn't a hard decision. I was crying in my office, seeing a therapist and trying not to break down pretty much daily. There was a lie I had committed myself to that I …

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The Idea Machine

Where do you get your ideas?Simple, I have a machine in my house built from spare parts found on the side of the road and at yard sales that I crank up whenever I am in need of an idea. The crank is the most important part. The ones from Victrola's are the best.

Leaving

When I was a child, I sat on the edge of a single bed and listened as my father told me how he was going on a business trip. He never came back. He was, in fact, moving out. The nuclear family I had been born into died that day. The funeral was the day …

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