Thirty days without soda and so far I haven’t retreated to the comforts of carbonation. I feel better and today, my jeans glided on instead of being pulled and tugged while I contort myself into them. I have been trying to think of what to work on for my next thirty day challenge.
I want to bring something into my life.
Saturday, I said goodbye to my friend, Krista, along with about sixty other souls. We cried and laughed remembering the woman who touched each of us. She was one of my mentors when I began teaching and the first to really get to know me and like me. I inherited her classroom and my magnificent classroom library got its start with the books she left behind.
She was a unique soul whose passion for life was undeniable. She loved to sing and at one point worked as a magician’s assistant. She gave up the road to provide a more stable home for her daughter and became a passionate advocate for students who found their way into her classroom. I missed her last outing because I was tired. Mentally tired. Exhausted. It really hasn’t gotten any better.
Once a upon a time, I wasn’t like this. Well not so much, but I had a better grasp on things and was able to flow more easily with life. I don’t believe that life’s ups and downs should be label drama. Things maybe dramatic from time to time that doesn’t mean that they need the label of Drama with a capital d. Drama is for the stage not to manufacture by human beings when they feel bored or don’t know how to act.
Working with teenagers, I see and hear a lot of Drama on a daily basis. My former roommate was also fond of it. Instead of talking to me about getting some of her rent or deposit back she has been getting others to talk to and threaten me. Drama.
Saturday, I was reminded that I also believe in living my life differently that beat of my life isn’t to be found in reacting but in acting. Krista took mediation classes with me. She listen to me. Now is my turn to listen and return to the beat of my heart and the rhythm of my breath as I take my place on the meditation cushion again.
Everyday for the next day thirty, I will be taking time to meditate. I’ll let you know how it goes.