Today, I was asked if I was autistic autistic and since the questioner was a child. I answsered without an ounce of sacrasm; channeling the most patient of teachers, my eighth grade English teacher, a woman who spent 3 hours in a lockdown with 20 kids, I answered. Everyone who is autistic is autistic austistic. …
Tag: reflection
Chapter 1: 2023
Everyday is a new chapter in our lives. Today is the first chapter in a new volume of your life. It is time to begin implementing the plans you have making. What is that? You haven't finished those plans. Don't worry you aren't alone. I can't count the number of things that I haven't finished planning or even begun to plan. New Year's reminds me of the beginning of school year. Friends and strangers asked if I am ready and my response is almost always "No, but it is coming, anyway." That is true of the New Year as well.
100 Words on ADHD
The knowledge that I have ADHD has transformed my life. Many of the things which I believed were faults were the effects of trying to adapt to a neurotypical world when there was no way to fit my triangle peg in to the octagon hole without glaring gaps. Those gaps are the things which cause …
100 Words on my Doctor
My doctor is not neurospicy. She has an ego that worries me. On the 6th of the month, I received an email saying that I need to talk to my doctor about getting a blood test due to high blood calcium level. On the 9th, I requested an appointment and by the 10th, I had …
100 Words on Evidence
This meme has run across my socials multiple times in the last couple of weeks. In 1994, I thought I knew so much but the evidence was weak. Since then I've learned and unlearned so many things. When I learned that I had ADHD, I had to unlearn shame and guilt. I am forgetful, I …
100 Words on my Curves
When I first hear Homage to My Hips by Lucille Clifton, I felt like she was talking to me. My hips are big hips, they don't fit into little places and need room to move around. I was empowered that day and every time I've read it or heard it recited. In fact, the first …
Writing for a Living
Everyday I wake up day with the hope that today will day that make another concrete step towards writing for a living. And somedays, I make that step. Other days, I fall into bed only having day dreamed about the stories I wanted to tell. Writing for a living or writing for my main paycheck …
Change Our Constant Companion
Monday, Change did not come. Tuesday, Change did not come. Wednesday, still no Change. Thursday, Change briefly stopped in. Friday, Change sundered in and flipped me the bird, which was totally unnecessary. I didn't doubt Change would come. It had been humanity's companion. Photo by Alexas Fotos on Pexels.com When I was born in Pennsylvania …
Writer Underwater
These last couple of months, I have been trying to finish the edits on The Devil's Due. And it really hasn't been going anywhere. Most of my long term writing projects including this blog have stalled. The pressure from my day job, the ongoing pandemic and family issues have been taking their toll. Then add …
A Year In Review (Kind of)
2021 like its predecessor was a year that has left deep grooves in my memory. A year of hope and another year of loss, the last year is more of a blur than I like to admit. Everything has been whipped together in a blender of stress and I am over it. Aren't we all? …
Lucinda Rose 